OK so I lied! I am scared to death!!! I am nervous I have been running around all morning like a chicken with no head.....I am scared I can't get a hold of the MOS so I am gonna have to take the kids!!! Which isn't something I wanted to do! I have to do this by myself because DJ is God knows where...so much for promises...but you bet your ass he made sure he was here for his shit next week!

OK I am done with that...I want this to be over today....I can let my mother go and go on with my life!!! Hopefully today will end it all and I can say goodbye!!!!


So NOTE to all my wonderful friends who have talked me though this thing........if I got off the deep end I am sorry!!! Depending on the outcome of todays deal depends on what I am going to do!!!!

Honestly I shouldn't be surprised that NO ONE in my family has thought to pick up a phone and say hey are you ok? If I was half as selfish as they were I would have well never mind! I am done with it all!


OK I am gonna go....need to get ready! Laters!