Hey All
Yes I know...it is a goth girl with tattoos and piercings! Yes I see that...BUT it is also green and pink and all those funky colors together that I like! AND I have been giving a lot of thought into change lately! Things are changing around here...some good some bad some just me knowing things have to change. Yes I am 5 months away from 30...honestly it is no biggie...but in the grand scheme of things...I do feel like change is inevitable!
???????????????????????Am I going to start tattooing my body...not likely...one might be nice..
..I am not sure...am I going to start poking holes in my body is strange places....NO...that isn't going to happen. One I am a mom and moms don't look like that...two it just isn't me...I went though that phase and it isn't attractive! Will I dye my hair some funky color...well we all know me that just might happen! Will I start wearing clothes like that...hmmm...if I can get the rest of this weight off...there is no telling! Am I going to slather up in white makeup black eyeliner and red lips...LMAO you know me better than that!
..I am not sure...am I going to start poking holes in my body is strange places....NO...that isn't going to happen. One I am a mom and moms don't look like that...two it just isn't me...I went though that phase and it isn't attractive! Will I dye my hair some funky color...well we all know me that just might happen! Will I start wearing clothes like that...hmmm...if I can get the rest of this weight off...there is no telling! Am I going to slather up in white makeup black eyeliner and red lips...LMAO you know me better than that!
This isn't what is going to happen!!!! Trust me...maybe after a hellofa night..but not always!
Change is inevitable no matter who you are...me it is time for me to be more true to myself...instead of being what I think others think I should be! I will keep ya posted on that. But for now...live with goth girl up there...she is a cutie in her own way! You gotta admit there is something hot and sensual about it all! Or maybe not! LOL I do however love the colors that are attributed to it all...the reds, and blacks and purples and such! I love it! The roses with tear drops and such! I like what it looks like...not what it represents...and honestly if any of you have ever spent anytime around these gals, you will realize they are not butches, they are not bitches, they don't wanna suck your blood, although maybe another part of a male body..or female for that matter...they don't worship the devil...all myths and bull shit!
OK well maybe some of them do but not all of them! OK I am gonna get off this subject....if ya don't get it by now you aren't gonna get it!!!!
Now onto other things....I got a call from Denise yesterday saying she was going to move to Farmington NM with Ben! yes I bawled my eyes out when we got done talking! I hate the fact that she is going to be 750 miles away from me. But I also know it is time for her to fly! So before I break down and loose it again...I am going to not talk about this anymore! My heart is breaking because I just knew sooner or later we would be living around each other once again! Anyways....
Big maroon truck update....he got his truck last night....2005 model! I am happy for him..he sounds sick and wants to come home! He isn't sure at this point if he is going to make it home or not! So we will see! I will keep ya posted!
I am done for now! Life stinks still...but things WILL GET BETTER! LOL!
Love ya, Me
