Hey All
Sorry I haven't been online in a long time...BUT I am back now.....You can go to my myspace and see whats up.... http://www.myspace.com/marthasnonsense
HASTA
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Friday, June 22, 2007
Enjoy
Hey all
I posted new pics of the kids here....and some of DJ....sorry not many of me because I am behind the scenes! LOL I plan to stay that way! Hope all is well with everyone!
DJ is doing better they are talking about letting the him come home today..we will see! Shan
I posted new pics of the kids here....and some of DJ....sorry not many of me because I am behind the scenes! LOL I plan to stay that way! Hope all is well with everyone!
DJ is doing better they are talking about letting the him come home today..we will see! Shan
The Kiddos and more!
DJ and Chad having a good time!
The kiddos....in front of the house from hell!
DJ being a doof!
Some of Zachs art work!!!!! Yeah long story he is in a shitload of trouble!
Lane and Shelby this winter at the light parade.....this has to be my favorite pic of all time!
Mommy and Shelby....it was very cold!
Mommy and Lane....we had a blast
Zach and Shelby at Papas riding in the bucket!
Zach looking way to happy! LOL
Yes he really is a ham when it comes to the camera!! Well heck doesn't matter camera or not he does stuff like that all the time!
Shelby and Lane at the holiday light parade...I have another one that I just love see above! LOL
Shelby getting way to big for her britches!!!
She went nuts over that scraf....now ask her where it is! LOL
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Where To Begin.....
Where do I begin? Guess I will start at the beginning of the end.... We moved away from Oklahoma last Oct....thought it was going to be great to come back "home"! HAHAHAHAHAH That is what we get for thinking....well you can go back and read how well that worked out to begin with....then we left Annas who was wonderful to us, but that was 7 people and 4 dogs in a two bedroom trailer house....just wasn't working...so we went back out to the farm for about 3 weeks till our dream home was ready.... HA....never think you are getting the home of your dreams....because it never turns out that way....within a few days of being there we began to realize that the people that redid the house didn't redo the house like they said they did...walls leaked, stove didn't work, shower was messed up, electrical shorted out, carpet began to rip up...ect...you name it it happened....after months of fighting with these people, we said screw it and decided to leave. Final straw, found out that their lawyer is their son in law and the guy that came to "inspect" the house....related to them too....can't talk to much about it because of the case against them, lets just say, I hope they get it shoved up their arse as hard as we did! I had an inspector come out and he found black mold in the boys bedroom wall and my bedroom wall! We were outta there in a few days..... We wanted to stay in Vega, we really did...but the housing there is scarce and it just wasn't happening! So we found a place in Amarillo and I love it! I forgot home much I love living in town and how much fun it can be! Kids are doing good....growing up way to fast 
This photo was taken the last day of school this year....not a month ago. Shelby is about as tall as I am now....Zach is catching up with her and Lane, well he is still the little guy, but he is getting there. He has a new set of stitches above his eye....apparently he has his fathers brains and decided it would be funny to walk up behind my sister while she was playing baseball....Not the brightest crayon in the box!
There are a lot of other things going on these days, that I just would rather not go into at this juncture. I know I miss everyone online and my ATW gals, I am sorry for just falling off the face of the earth. Everytime I had the cash to get the internet going, it had to go to something else....I was working at the Allusps in Vega, yes I am a glutton for punishment, especially since I was the assistant manager! Yea, I know STUPID!
Lessons that have been learned though all of this....well more for the kids and DJ than me...DJ realized that having me home is way better than a few hundered extra bucks a week. The kids realized that mommy being gone a lot really sucks! And I realized you cant go home! No matter how much you want too You can't! It is never the same....anyways...I gotta go because I will get emotional if I don't!
Hugs loves and mushy crap to everyone!!!
OH yeah I gotta show it off because we are soooo proud of it....DJ's new truck...these aren't the best pics, and things on the truck have changes, new lighted bumper and new stacks and a few new shiny things, I will get new pics put up asap! Enjoy let me know what you think! Shany!
This photo was taken the last day of school this year....not a month ago. Shelby is about as tall as I am now....Zach is catching up with her and Lane, well he is still the little guy, but he is getting there. He has a new set of stitches above his eye....apparently he has his fathers brains and decided it would be funny to walk up behind my sister while she was playing baseball....Not the brightest crayon in the box!
There are a lot of other things going on these days, that I just would rather not go into at this juncture. I know I miss everyone online and my ATW gals, I am sorry for just falling off the face of the earth. Everytime I had the cash to get the internet going, it had to go to something else....I was working at the Allusps in Vega, yes I am a glutton for punishment, especially since I was the assistant manager! Yea, I know STUPID!
Lessons that have been learned though all of this....well more for the kids and DJ than me...DJ realized that having me home is way better than a few hundered extra bucks a week. The kids realized that mommy being gone a lot really sucks! And I realized you cant go home! No matter how much you want too You can't! It is never the same....anyways...I gotta go because I will get emotional if I don't!
Hugs loves and mushy crap to everyone!!!
OH yeah I gotta show it off because we are soooo proud of it....DJ's new truck...these aren't the best pics, and things on the truck have changes, new lighted bumper and new stacks and a few new shiny things, I will get new pics put up asap! Enjoy let me know what you think! Shany!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Friday, January 05, 2007
January 5 2004
Three years ago this morning my life changed forever. I got the call that my mother died. I haven't cried today...I dont' know why...last night my sis called and I know she wanted to talk about it, but I refused. Am I in denial? I don't know. Maybe I am just spent when it comes to emotions lately! I don't know. Maybe I am just too busy with my own life to worry about things I cannot change. I usually write a letter to all my mothers siblings and her parents on this date, but today I am not. I am done with it. Don't get my wrong I love my mom still...I just maybe have accepted it...Hell I dont' know. Maybe today just isn't that big of a deal. Maybe tomorrow I will loose my mind, maybe tonight I will have a mental melt down...shoot who knows. I do know that I have made a decission and I am going to do my darndest to stick with it.... Today I am going to quit smoking. Not that that had anything to do with my mothers death...BUT It might have a lot to do with my own and it is time. I was doing really good with it a few years ago I had almost made it 5 days...but then the rug got pulled out. And the doc said NOPE you can't stop right now...You will send your brain into overload....so I didn't! Am I scared You bet your ass I am! I haven't ever done something this life changing before...at least well I have but you know what I mean. You may ask why today of all days.....And I say why not? A new year doesn't have to begin on the 1st! I learned that a few years back. Sometimes it happens a few days later. OK Now that I am writting this I am beginning to get a little emotional......OK I am over it. Let me explain something.....the day my mother died my life turned into something I had never had before. I became an orphan. I no longer had parents. Neither did my sister Amanda, so I not only became the big sis but somewhat of a Mom to my other sister too. Not that I didn't already have that after all she had been living with me for a few years. I became the leader of the pack so to speak and felt the pressure of it. I have finally came to terms with it and my anger is gone when it comes to it. I mourn the loss of my mother not so much for myself but for my sisters. She saw me get married and have children. She saw that I could be a pretty damn good person and I grew up. Amanda wasn't even 20 yet and Denise had just turned 18! It isn't fair that they won't have our mom at their weddings to bitch about the guy they are marrying! LOL Or to have her there when they go into labor for the first time. Or to have her voice say to them...You aren't a kid anymore...You are a mom! That is what I mourn more than anything. My kids will have vague memories of her, but theirs won't have any at all. Their husbands will never know what kind of mom or mother in law she was. Granted she wasn't the greatest, but I have learned now that I am older....We all make mistakes, and her mistakes weren't any worse than anyone elses....She just didn't know. Seeing how her family handled her death, and us from that point on I can see where a lot of the anger came from! I would have been pissed off too! OK Well I am rambling. LADEDADEDA! LOL Mom whereever you are....I love ya...I miss ya...I pray you are in heaven with Kevin! I pray that you can look down upon all of us girls and laugh with my father at my children! And know that that is your legacy! That we are good...we will survive! And the only reason that will happen, is because you made us that way! Love ya mom! Shany! " name=Body>
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January 5, 2004
Three years ago this morning my life changed forever. I got the call that my mother died.
I haven't cried today...I dont' know why...last night my sis called and I know she wanted to talk about it, but I refused. Am I in denial? I don't know. Maybe I am just spent when it comes to emotions lately! I don't know. Maybe I am just too busy with my own life to worry about things I cannot change.
I usually write a letter to all my mothers siblings and her parents on this date, but today I am not. I am done with it. Don't get my wrong I love my mom still...I just maybe have accepted it...Hell I dont' know. Maybe today just isn't that big of a deal. Maybe tomorrow I will loose my mind, maybe tonight I will have a mental melt down...shoot who knows. I do know that I have made a decission and I am going to do my darndest to stick with it....
Today I am going to quit smoking. Not that that had anything to do with my mothers death...BUT It might have a lot to do with my own and it is time. I was doing really good with it a few years ago I had almost made it 5 days...but then the rug got pulled out. And the doc said NOPE you can't stop right now...You will send your brain into overload....so I didn't! Am I scared You bet your ass I am! I haven't ever done something this life changing before...at least well I have but you know what I mean.
You may ask why today of all days.....And I say why not? A new year doesn't have to begin on the 1st! I learned that a few years back. Sometimes it happens a few days later. OK Now that I am writting this I am beginning to get a little emotional......OK I am over it.
Let me explain something.....the day my mother died my life turned into something I had never had before. I became an orphan. I no longer had parents. Neither did my sister Amanda, so I not only became the big sis but somewhat of a Mom to my other sister too. Not that I didn't already have that after all she had been living with me for a few years. I became the leader of the pack so to speak and felt the pressure of it. I have finally came to terms with it and my anger is gone when it comes to it. I mourn the loss of my mother not so much for myself but for my sisters. She saw me get married and have children. She saw that I could be a pretty damn good person and I grew up. Amanda wasn't even 20 yet and Denise had just turned 18! It isn't fair that they won't have our mom at their weddings to bitch about the guy they are marrying! LOL Or to have her there when they go into labor for the first time. Or to have her voice say to them...You aren't a kid anymore...You are a mom! That is what I mourn more than anything. My kids will have vague memories of her, but theirs won't have any at all. Their husbands will never know what kind of mom or mother in law she was. Granted she wasn't the greatest, but I have learned now that I am older....We all make mistakes, and her mistakes weren't any worse than anyone elses....She just didn't know.
Seeing how her family handled her death, and us from that point on I can see where a lot of the anger came from! I would have been pissed off too!
OK Well I am rambling. LADEDADEDA! LOL
Mom whereever you are....I love ya...I miss ya...I pray you are in heaven with Kevin! I pray that you can look down upon all of us girls and laugh with my father at my children! And know that that is your legacy! That we are good...we will survive! And the only reason that will happen, is because you made us that way! Love ya mom!
Shany!
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January 5, 2004
Three years ago this morning my life changed forever. I got the call that my mother died.
I haven't cried today...I dont' know why...last night my sis called and I know she wanted to talk about it, but I refused. Am I in denial? I don't know. Maybe I am just spent when it comes to emotions lately! I don't know. Maybe I am just too busy with my own life to worry about things I cannot change.
I usually write a letter to all my mothers siblings and her parents on this date, but today I am not. I am done with it. Don't get my wrong I love my mom still...I just maybe have accepted it...Hell I dont' know. Maybe today just isn't that big of a deal. Maybe tomorrow I will loose my mind, maybe tonight I will have a mental melt down...shoot who knows. I do know that I have made a decission and I am going to do my darndest to stick with it....
Today I am going to quit smoking. Not that that had anything to do with my mothers death...BUT It might have a lot to do with my own and it is time. I was doing really good with it a few years ago I had almost made it 5 days...but then the rug got pulled out. And the doc said NOPE you can't stop right now...You will send your brain into overload....so I didn't! Am I scared You bet your ass I am! I haven't ever done something this life changing before...at least well I have but you know what I mean.
You may ask why today of all days.....And I say why not? A new year doesn't have to begin on the 1st! I learned that a few years back. Sometimes it happens a few days later. OK Now that I am writting this I am beginning to get a little emotional......OK I am over it.
Let me explain something.....the day my mother died my life turned into something I had never had before. I became an orphan. I no longer had parents. Neither did my sister Amanda, so I not only became the big sis but somewhat of a Mom to my other sister too. Not that I didn't already have that after all she had been living with me for a few years. I became the leader of the pack so to speak and felt the pressure of it. I have finally came to terms with it and my anger is gone when it comes to it. I mourn the loss of my mother not so much for myself but for my sisters. She saw me get married and have children. She saw that I could be a pretty damn good person and I grew up. Amanda wasn't even 20 yet and Denise had just turned 18! It isn't fair that they won't have our mom at their weddings to bitch about the guy they are marrying! LOL Or to have her there when they go into labor for the first time. Or to have her voice say to them...You aren't a kid anymore...You are a mom! That is what I mourn more than anything. My kids will have vague memories of her, but theirs won't have any at all. Their husbands will never know what kind of mom or mother in law she was. Granted she wasn't the greatest, but I have learned now that I am older....We all make mistakes, and her mistakes weren't any worse than anyone elses....She just didn't know.
Seeing how her family handled her death, and us from that point on I can see where a lot of the anger came from! I would have been pissed off too!
OK Well I am rambling. LADEDADEDA! LOL
Mom whereever you are....I love ya...I miss ya...I pray you are in heaven with Kevin! I pray that you can look down upon all of us girls and laugh with my father at my children! And know that that is your legacy! That we are good...we will survive! And the only reason that will happen, is because you made us that way! Love ya mom!
Shany!
Friday, November 24, 2006
Calling all fellow bloggers
Hello to all my friends and family I have out there in blogger land! I have a favor...please send me the addresses to your blogs...since I am in Texas and don't have access to my computer I need your addresses so I can keep up on what is going on! Thanks, Shan
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