Line up

Here we go.....


Kurt Busch is sittin on the pole with yesterdays winner of the Busch race Greg Biffle! That is the front row..and historicaly NO ONE from the front row has every won at Fontana! So that is good news! Because personally no matter how much I wanna like Kurt I think he and his brother look like they were just let out of the freak show to race cars!
Now the rest of it looks like this...Johnson, last weeks winner, is in third, sittin right next to him is Judys new guy JJ....he is the new interstate batteries guy!!! And it looks as if the #11 Fed Ed kinkos car of Denny Hamlin got the 5th spot! Another one of Judys guys!!! And next to him in the 6th position is is Judys old guy Jeff Burton! Who is still a hottie in my book!
7th - 10th goes to Kyle Busch, Joe Nemacheck, Jeff (fancy pants) Gordan and the Craftsman truck series points leader Mark Martin!
Ryan, Tony and Kasey take the next three spots!!! Ya know one of these days is gonna be Kaseys day! I am gonna be crying laughing cheering and going absoutly nutso when it does!!!!
14th-20th goes to Scott Riggs (whose day is coming too) Kevin Harvick, Elliot Sadler and the biggest joke in old man racing Sterling Marlin! And DJ's man Lil E makes it in in the 18th spot! Behind them is Dale Jarrett (not racing the truck today) and Casey Mears...that puss ass who should have helped out Ryan Newman last week but pussed out!
Looks like whiner ass Jeff (DJ didn't get into you last week) Green came in at 26th position and Baby ass Matt Kenseth came in in the 31st position! I guess his mouth was running faster than his car this week!

Race starts at 2:30 CST! On the Fox network...which means Yeah we get our weekly dose of DW!!! And some crankin it up!!!!! HELL YEAH! NBC sucks when it comes to their coverage but Fox rules!!!!!!

OK well I just pissed Michael off by telling him I can't meet him half way to get Zachary....oh well my trannie is messed up I am not take 3 kids out to the middle of no where and getting stuck! He can just bring him home...he sure could drive all the way here to get him!!!!

OK I am off to finish chores and stuff before the race starts!!!!

BOOGITY BOOGITY BOOGITY!!!!!!

Boogity Boogity Boogity!!!

Cheeseburger Cheeseburger Hot Fried Taters Ice Cold Coca Cola!!!

LETS GO RACIN!!!!

OK people I grew up a race fan and I will always be a race fan! Let me tell ya...when I was a kid...there were many many weekends during race season where it was friday afterschool packing up the truck and the van...hooking up to dads race car...meeting the Pratts at the quick stop and hauling ass down to Lubbock for a race! Either stay the night there or haul ass back home that night and make it to the track in Amarillo the next night and back home by 4am and back up by 8 spray the car down...load everything back up...and meet the Pratts at the quick stop and our to Clovis we would go!!! In fact I will find those pics and let y'all see them!!! Those were the days!!!! In fact in my office I have a photo hanging up of when Monte Pratt won his first trophy!!!! Where the photos of dad winning his two are I am pretty sure he has those!!!

So today when the green flag drops and you hear the roar know my whole body is shaking with excitment!!!! I LOVE racing!!!! DJ says I have high octane blood! LOL I get all giddy on race day...there is nothing better!!!! Well ok there are a few things better but not much!!! LMAO!!!!


OK now to bigger things....I am the mother of a woman now! And that is all I am gonna say about it!!! If you can't figure it out then you don't need to know!!! LOL!!!!

well I have a million and one things to get done before the race! I better run! y'all have a wonderful sunday!!!!

Part 6 Finally!

OK I know I have taken my sweet ass time getting this part posted…I am sure most have lost interest! Sorry it has been a busy busy nightmare around here lately! OOK enough chit chat….Part 6 begins….

Well after all that was said and done, that night was quite possibly one of the longest nights of my life. BUT the morning sun came up and it was a new day. I woke pretty early that next morning….trying to figure out what I was going to do. Honestly the next few days are a blur! I was so freaked out over what had happened and the strength I had show in making him leave that I didn’t know what to do or where that had come from or what my next move was going to be. Not that I had not thought about it constantly for almost a year, I had just never thought I had it in me to do it!

To make a long story short…he went to stay in Amarillo with his mom. Which was a huge mistake because that is where all the dope was. Annoying shit, but it was true. The kids went and spent one night with him and I got a phone call from his mom and sister saying he was bringing them home because he was being a bastard to them. He asked to come home then….I said no! I had had to take off work to come and get the kids and he looked like he had been on a week long bender. The only reason I had let the kids go is because his sister and mom were right there and I STUPIDLY thought that it would be alright. I do believe that is the day I took Lanes car seat from him and he made a comment about the only reason I don’t want him home is because I was getting fucked by someone else! I threw the car seat at him! That wasn’t the reason….he knows that now…but at the time arr anyways!!!

About a month into the separation and him conning me out of about 200 bucks for this that and the other….I finally said FORGET IT! No more! Aint happening! I cut off all communication with him. I even told someone that it would be easier if he fell off the face of the earth! Which he pretty much did. Then it happened….he came to the house to get some of his stuff there. I sat him down…he looked pretty good actually and he was working which was good. I asked him to come home. I told him we could work things out and figure all of this out….and he said no…he had made a commitment to Chris (his cousin) to move in with him and he couldn’t back out! (did you hear my heart shatter) I was broken! I didn’t even know what to say…I just finished helping him pack his stuff and watched him leave! That night I did some stupid things which I wont’ go into because it is in the past and it is over and done and it won’t happen again!!!!! There are only maybe a couple of people that know what happened that night and they aint telling! I just can’t go into it…lets just say it wasn’t my most shinning moment!

OK Back to that summer…..besides having my heart ripped out by him every time I saw him….things were ok. But I honestly cannot get into all the details because they are someone elses details too and I don’t want to infringe on his privacy as well. Lets just say I was learning to live again and realizing that I didn’t have to be the victim in all of this. I as strong and independent and I could be a whole person. Not that it mattered much…I was still scared and insecure….but that changed.

August of that year my ex, Michael, his niece whom I had remained close to all these years, was getting married and she had a bachelorette party. Well his current wife and I were getting along pretty well and so we drive down to Crowell Texas together. What a mistake! What a huge fucking mistake! Not the being with Jamie, because she is half ass a nice person….but Adrian Anne was really really drunk and her mouth tends to run when she is doing that. And she started asking me about the other man and if I loved him and blah blah blah…..I didn’t want to talk about it as I had not had near as much to drink as she did! And that is when the bomb dropped! She told me she had been sleeping with DJ before we split! Something of which he denies! But there is to much evidence to prove otherwise. They were all on dope and blah…I personally don’t give a shit as to why they did what they did…SHE was someone I held near and dear to my heart and he was my husband. But I guess in their minds they justified it as well we aren’t in our right minds…well if you can justify it that well then fuck you you know what you are doing!!!! Jamie and I left…and I didn’t go to her wedding. Which was a good thing, because they were divorced a year later! HA! No I shouldn’t say that he was really a nice guy….they just weren’t meant to be!

Anyways…I came back to Vega that night and instead of going back to that house where all those memories were and all the hard times had happened and things were just NOT good….I went to my guy friends house….I crawled in bed with him and cried for a day! I felt like such a fool. How had everyone known what was going on and no one said anything to me? How could they all do this to me after all the good I had done for them. The love and truth I had given them. I will tell you this…those were some of the darkest days of my life, and had it not been for him sitting right next to me letting me know that I Was going to make it though this I don’t’ think I would have. I was broken. That was honestly my rock bottom. There was no where left to go but UP! This wasn’t the first time they had messed around together and made it ok! And I had forgiven it the first time which I should have never ever done! But I did! OK I gotta stop now, because this is bringing back way more emotion in me then I ever thought it would. Makes me mad at him and he doesn’t deserve to pay for his sins more than once. Makes me hurt still to this day at thinking at what happened. I will write more soon I promise.
I hope everyone knows I am not ignoring all of this I am just getting to the very emotional part of it all….and to be honest…there are parts of me that will never get over all of the deceit and backstabbing, and anger I still feel well up in me about it. Some say I might not be over it…some might be right…but he has paid for those things….he has mended this bridge…and it isn’t that I am so angry at him anymore…I hold myself accountable for a lot of it too. The mistakes I made not knowing what the hell I was doing in the situation. Anyways….there is more to come I promise!!!

Well Shit!

Listen the first race of the season is just that the FIRST...BUT it is also one of the most important...unless you are with Hendricks Motor Sports!!!! If you look into the history of it everytime a Hendricks car wins the 500 they go on to do good the first few races, but as Gordon proved last year they just couldn't pull it out....he wasn't even in the chase!!!!

Every driver should experience this victory once in their carrer! But to dedicate the win to all the haters is just stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It is pompus!!!!!!!! And that is all I am gonna say about it!

It Is SNOWING!!!!!!!!

Ok those who know me best know I could live in Alaska or in the middle of Sibera! I LOVE SNOW!
I hate driving in it...I find it is the perfect thing to help my agoraphobia....I can't go anywhere! LOL
BUT since we live in Oklahoma now.....with all its wonderful people (ha)
They dont' get snow much in these here parts! BUT I love it when it happens. BUT it has only happened one other time this winter and it was gone by noon! NOW they are saying this is going to stick around for a few days and there is another band of snow coming in! YEAH!!!!!

Problem...it is also stretching the entire length of DJ and Montes journey home! That sucks....but I have faith they will be just fine. I have no doubt! I was hoping they would be home eariler than sunday night but it is looking like the slow going might get them home on Monday! Oh well...we will be alright as long as they just get home!

OK BACK to the snow.....last night about 6pm I hear this tink tink tink sound on my roof and windows...so I look out...it is what they call sleet around here...back home we call that shit hail! But either way you look at it....Ice Balls were falling from the sky....
Well OK not quite that big but it was big! this went on for hours...it was still happening when I went to bed last night which was well after midnight. Then I get up this morning about 4am and this is what it looked like outside
I know it isn't the best of pics...but you can see the snow still falling on our BBQ grill YEAH! And on the ground! I LOVE SNOW!!!!!
Anyways I wanted to share! Shannon

Some Political Funnies

Hey All
As most of you know...I am not into politics...personally I don 't like any of them...I think they are all crooked and full of shit! BUT that is just what I think....I wanted to share some of the funnies I have seen when it comes to our prez...
NOW these are funnies...no need to cause a riot or start blowing shit up and killing people over it....

Boogity Boogity Boogity....LETS GO RACING!!!!!

The Daytona 500 is the race of all races in the NASCAR world. And 99% of the time it falls in the same week or even the same day as our anniversary. And being the NASCAR fans that we are you can imagine how great that is!

Well....countdown to Daytona has begun. On Sunday afternoon the city of Daytona will be filled with a mix of rebel flag wheelding appalachian americans,

To Americas top of the pile?!

Now as many of you know DJ is a HUGE Dale Jr fan ---->

Zachary on the other hand is a Jeff Gordon fan ---> (can you tell I am not a fan?)

This does cause some problems in our home come race season....what is the funniest is seeing Zach, who has been able to sit and watch and entire race since he was 2 years old, get in DJs face when Gordon wins, and is equally funny when I ME I get to get in BOTH their faces when my guy does better than theirs..

Isn't he the hottest thing in Nascar?
But this year there will be competition....My dear friend Judy is also a HUGE NASCAR fan! But unfortunatly she has picked a team who well hasn't had the best of luck over the last few years...

Now I know that everyone has to have their car and their driver, but I wonder if Judy knows that paiting a race car green is bad luck? Could be the cause of their problems? Hmmmm
Lets see how the season goes......

Boogity Boogity Boogity....LETS GO RACING!!!!!

Part 5 teaser

Summer of 2001 well it all had stared way before that and it was beginning to come to a head. We were either fighting or not talking for days at a time. It didn’t really matter. I begged him to stop but he ignorned me and kept doing as he pleased. Now I have to stop right here and say…this is where it gets rough, and this is where most gals would have pulled out and said ENOUGH!!!!! BUT I the idiot I can be, I am not a quitter….I don’t have it in me to be that way.
Yes I was having an affair, and not to defend it because it was wrong and it should NOT have happened. BUT I didn’t feel guilty for it one bit, I didn’t want it to end, and I know this was my life line…had it not been for that I wouldn’t be sitting here today writing this. DJ knows how I feel about it. I know it was wrong and it has caused problems between the two of us every since. Mainly because I am not sorry for it. I am sorry because it hurt him but I am not nor will I ever be sorry that it happened. IT was the best thing that I could have been doing at the time. And let me point out that it wasn’t all about sex. It was someone showing me that I was worth something that I did have meaning and I was more than what I thought I had become. Anyways…I know a lot of people would never agree with any of that….And maybe if I had heard that come out of someones mouth before this, I would have been BULL SHIT…you are so full of it. BUT now I have a greater appreciation for the men and woman who do have affairs not because they are horn ball freaks, but because there is something missing in their life and they want so badly for their partner to give it to them and for one reason or another, it isn’t going to happen.
OK back to May early may 2001. He was never home and when he was I was crying or praying he would leave again. He didn’t get violent again for a while…the whole breaking my wrist and what had happened to Shelby sorta chilled things out for about a year. The that night in May, Zachary and Lane were back in their rooms, it was a Wednesday and it was a school night, although Zach was the only one in school. Well, they had the only fan we had back in their room…and the windows open. Shelby didn’t have screens on her windows nor did she have a fan. So I let her sleep in the living room. Well he obviously wasn’t paying one bit of attention, he was in his chair watching TV zoned out…..Shelby was behind him on the couch, and I was back behind the couch on my computer. In a sudden fail swoop he stands up turns around and said What the fuck is she doing in here? I explained it to him and he started going off. I decided right then and there NO MORE…not one more night of this am I going to go through. I walked up to him and said if you wanna yell and scream at me we will go in the bedroom and you can do it in there but NOT right here. Not in front of our daughter not like this. Well I began walking back to the bedroom though the kitchen and he grabs a knife, and throws me down in the hallway and puts the knife to my throat….I have no idea what came over me, I wasn’t scared, I didn’t scream, I didn’t wanna wake the kids up. I told him, if he was going to kill me, fine I don’t care anymore….I did however want him to do it in the bedroom so the kids wouldn’t be apart of it. He jumped up and ran out of the house. As soon as he did I realized Shelby was awake and had seen the entire thing. SO I ran and locked the door. I ran to the phone and called Johnny and told him if he didn’t want the cops on the farm he better get down there well, it wasn’t a minute later and he and Chris, DJ’s ass hole cousin shows up and takes him out of there. I had yet to cry or scream or do anything. I called the man I was seeing and told him what happened….and then DJs cousin shows up and offers to comfort me….if ya know what I mean! I was so pissed I kicked him out…got the kids settled back in, boarded up the front door window, because he had busted it out, and lost it. I cried all night long, I hit my knees and begged God for the answers I couldn’t find. I ended up crying myself to sleep.

Green Bay or Bust

As quite a few of you know I am involved with a site called atruckerwife.com and in July we have a convention in Green Bay. So as a tribute to the site and the convention and these wonderful women I have decided to go green with my blog till July!!!!! Enjoy! Shannon PS can anyone tell me why when I hit enter my cursor disappears? It only does it here!!!!!

On a sweet note

On a sweetier note.. well for starters every time I hit the enter button to start a new paragraph the cursor disappears so sorry this is all running together but here it is My daughter handed me this paper yesterday after getting in some serious trouble, by her dad, for her attitude, I do believe the words I HATE YOU came out of her mouth....yeah they have been butting heads a lot but this is what she had to say about me which I thought was super sweet and was written at school before she came home The person who has influenced my life most is my mom. The reson is I can come to her for problems and She fixes them. She helps me. She tells me to keep my heard high, but most of all she loves me and I love her. I have learned lots from her like how to play games and not to cheat. I can't name all the thing she's taught me. I just know I love her and hope to be a lot like her when I grow up. Talk about the biggest tear jerker I have had in years!!! I didn't have a clue she felt this way, I thought she hated me too!!!! i can't believe it!!!

Ok now that I have that off my chest....what I am so peeved about is this...I had part 5 written edited and ready to post and it was on my old computer...and POOF the fucker is gone!! GONE Like a freight train, GONE like yesterday, GONE GONE GONE!!!!!!! I dont know what the hell happened to it but I will get it written afreakingin....damn it...yeah I am peeved!!!

FUCK